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back in January shit was gettin scary
too addicted to the pleasures I was high already
eyes is red like burning cherry
got my weed dont need u near me
they called me antisocial im just weary
dont trust nobody but my brother and my mother
cant pretend to be someone im not im not no undercover
there is nothing to discover
my thoughts is often cluttered so I fumbled thru the summer
in the winter cold is clarity but still I find they staring at me
like im carrying an air of arrogance or like im an alien travellin through foreign areas
battlin my doubts b4 they tear me up
thats what I did to my writtens when I didnt care enough
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Balance (prod. ntvrme)
01:53
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I choose mystery for my story
history repeats dont let the time bore me
misery deceased release the rhymes surely
independent mind the creativity divine for me
we not designed to be disguised homie!
I reach outside the barries that they designed for me
5 foot freak like Malik u kno im soaring mentally
but im down to earth like plants and trees
I got no enemies ill spread love indefinitely
it doesnt cost a penny
yo why they actin like it charge a fee
seeking truth I speak my truth even if they try to censor me
ill never leave
connecting thru telepathy
vibrations from the centerpiece the phonies do not pester me
im on the quest for inner peace thats somethin they cant take from me
yea that something they cant take from me
zonin spaciously in the space I be
riding waves
elation in the sacred sea
the moon been guiding thru the darkness and the sun illuminates the progress
I used to be so lost I didnt understand the process for progress
patience dedication and consistency
got rid of tendencies that wasnt fuckin helping me
yea they wasnt fuckin helping me
I choose mystery for my story
history repeats dont let the time bore me
misery deceased release the rhymes surely
independent mind the creativity divine for me
we not designed to be disguised homie!
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things blossom when u give em time
many times never tried tried to hide any sign
stuck between the lines of empathize and nevermind
please dont take away the things I need for peace of mind
the day its time to die I wanna feel like I lived mine with my heart and soul combined
elegance is excellent but ion care about being the best dressed and shit
just feeling better than I ever did
move in tune with destiny
removing all dependency from enemies
shrooms included for perspectives that I never seen
often been conditioned by subliminal messaging so im letting go of everything they said to me
yea thats baggage I could never claim
I just let it be
we praise freedom but be chained to our beliefs
we praise healing but be poisoned with deceit
lies we tell to our own self
those the worst kind
and I know it well...
things blossom when u give em time
many times never tried tried to hide any sign
stuck between the lines of empathize and nevermind
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till the hours fold
practicing my style and flow
never let my mold me they was scolding do not matter tho
opinions easily shatter like glass castles hit with bricks and stones
not as solid as I told this is me exposed
dont got mercedes goals still focused on the payments
the land degraded like my generations patience
my previous plan is fading dont see the point of frolicking in matrix
shallow souls bathing in they own basin
cant ignore these statements
but I been complacent
almost 20 years old still look like a baby
when im 80 smelling daisy’s in the rays praying
no debate raging
no craving for my fallen nature
this life is but a vision like hallucinations
I been writing over sinning and it feels amazing
I get awkward in public wit constant conversation
introverted nature
undisturbed determined not deterred by the verbs of hatred
secrets of society blurred faces redacted whole pages
what you seen is all you know and thats a shame maybe
silence is wise
but I been hypnotized by the noise inside
Its so loud inside my mind
hope you proceed to make dreams reality before the day close
many cope with the smoke yea light it bro
I would be lying if I said I was enlightened tho
I dont hope for nothing
keep faith in something
cuz these days numbered
stay cluttered in my brain structure
stray far away from assumptions
asking god for some clarity its clear to see that im confused
on a path of purpose
gotta show but I dont care to prove..
till the hours fold
practicing my style and flow
never let my mold me they was scolding do not matter tho
it really do not matter tho
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that was the wildest trip
I havent seen that side of me since I was a little kid
before i was convinced that I wasnt shit
what is this?
something beautiful true acceptance wasnt the usual
I was used to feeling unsuitable
never suit and tie
who am I?
decipher all the lies
they could never try
to take advantage of my heart and kindness
know my worth yea this mind is timeless
one of one
only one under the sun
forever unified ride or die
only thing thats worth my time
love stronger pride
I love hard make it hard to rewind
I try to hide it cuz I know she cud move on anytime
thats the way it goes on this merry go
spitting merry flows even when im feeling low
say the least so when i speak they listen close
this not a swell fairy tale but i fare u well bro
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coated in blue
he etched the code in stone but dont follow through
truth leaking out the rats teeth
lungs black but he run fast like an athlete
the last breath that he take probably of some OG
Kush
got me
look!
eyes redder than they shud be
man i beeen smoking since 14 regularly
not to mention i first started at 11 so please
dont mention it to me
the road longer than it seems
I wouldnt know im still young atleast
still praying for love and peace
one day well rest deep below the concrete
bury me a G
surrounded by the roots of trees
decomposing like the fallen leaves
autumn breeze send a chill up my sleeve
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my fallen nature
falling flat on my face had no time for bracing
I had tried erasing pieces of a man depraving dedication
mary jane my medication
tryna find a better way than to smoke it all away
thats meditation
yo its hard to keep quiet when my mind racing
world jaded
bombs detonating civilians decimated
many millions mentally enslaved
drinking minute maid
instant gratification molding my generation
I been alone kicking flows with no destination
me and my imagination take us far away to better places
know this earth amazing we make could make it an oasis
but talk is cheap I know they plotting death for hefty payments
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they cant debunk my dreams
the reason i would bleed something bigger than me
the reaper always there like the breeze
determination of a fiend needles scattered like the chatter i release
mental clarity a rarity but still i find some peace the poetry a part me its haunting but if i lost it there go my heart and arteries
its all a scheme get the green nothing free some will kill for the cheese
a world of sin with many scenes to relieve and disturb left debris
been inferred that the last days coming quicker than they seem
we all pearls made bleek through deceit
only one life to live through these eyes that I see many memories
never ending recollections of the present
like a mirror just reflecting on my imperfections
meant to be ascended
the day of death return to essence
in the meantime throwing peace signs rolling herbal blessings
the realest message that we luminescent
his steps heavy with the weight of the world
but let it go nothing saving this world
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please remind me that we mortal men
im more then blessed
I never lost a friend he just departed man
went our separate ways
lemon haze blaze till the vision fades
just traversing through this the endless maze
gaze at the suns rays shining through the shades of gray
tried to state that i feel some way but only stuttering clutter brained
nothing stays
nothing lasts
chasing pussy is as empty the money path so I dont run for that
looking for a queen where the love intact
looking at the earth sun is rising fast see it through the glass
disconnected like an ancient artifact from its past
so its back to the roots
backpacking through the madness with my heart in the loop
hardly looking back cuz they was laughing like fools
could never take it personal its irking you but they could never walk up in your shoes..
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